What A Night...

At first i was a little hesitant to post this on the internet, since this is supposed to be mostly for my youtube account, but i think its something i need to do.

So basically God really showed up in my life tonight. I mean, i wasn't the only one by any means, but i just want to share with you what happened to me.

Well, actually it was kinda funny, because, i didn't want to go to youth. It seemed like whenever i would go, I would have that feeling of being an outcast. And as soon as i walked in, seeing everyone... my first thought was "What am i doing here? I should have just stayed home."

I mean, even as worship started, it just didn't feel right. I was putting forth no effort and still felt like a total fake, and a hypocrite. Then, after about the third song, my youth pastor got up on stage and had us all come up to the front, church-camp style, and spoke to us. Now, i couldnt tell you, word for word what he said, but he did say "Some of you haven't really worshipped in a long time." Hello? Totally called me out. After that worship, for me, got really good, and i went to a place with God that i haven't been to in a really long time. And considering that, I figured God was done working in my life for the night. That was a big wall in my heart that was gone, what else did He need to do, right?

Not even close. My youth pastor and his wife both layed hands on me and prayed. I can tell you... thats the first time... since I got saved that God has moved me like that. He told me to stop running. That I was created with a purpose. And He wouldn't have given me a purpose I couldn't fulfill. He knows the compassion and love I have for the people around me who are hurting, but how could I possibly speak life into them, when I'm slowly dying inside?

And at this point, He still wasn't through with me. He just kept showing up. When our youth group went to In and Out after service, one of our youth leaders started talking to the couple next to us, and it was a really good conversation about our faith and how God works through us. Imagine that. An amazing God conversation with total strangers. Crazy right? I mean, even on the ride home with another youth leader, our conversations were great, and totally thought provoking.

Such an amazing night. I'll let you guys in on a little secret... God's totally awesome.

With all the love i can muster ;)
~random

Hahaha. EDIT.
I forgot to feature a picture and video.
Today's features: Enough (this one's a video I did to a song my friend wrote and sang and stuff, she needs more love haha) and Study, Study, Study... (My friend from dA did this. All her stuff's amazing, but i still had this one on my watch page so.... :D)